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Friday, November 20, 2009

Waiting on God's Blessing

So, Two days ago. I get a note on Facebook of some really close ppl to us say that they are pregnant. Wow I could just feel the Excitement thru the Computer of how she felt. I was So happy for her and her hubby both. I couldn't Believe it. This Couple is so amazing. Hes the leader of Worship at their Church and they both were raised in a Christian home. Him being from a small immediate family and she being One of Eleven Kids. So Of Course you know she was so ready to be a mommy. Well Later that day me and the kids headed over to her house to visit with her and talk Baby the whole time. LOL. So much fun. She shared with me how she found out she was pregnant and I shared how I found out with Camp a year ago. Oh the memories. However. she and I had so much fun. We can wait until this Baby gets here so that they can grow up close with my sister-in-laws new one on the way and our lil man camp. So a bit has changed since that day.Yesterday I get a phone call from my sister in law saying this person so close to us Lost her baby. Uggggg. The Pain I felt for her being in her shoes once. I just wanted to break down and cry so much for her. I knew she must have been so Heartbroken. However, as soon as My sister in law told me this. I got off the Phone with her and sat in my chair for a minute completely taken back by this feeling that everything was just fine. It's that feeling when you know God is trying to tell you something. Well. I listened and to me I was told, There is no need to worry Everything is just fine. So Im standing on the word of God and believing that this couple welcomes a new baby in July next year.You may call me crazy, But I once was in her shoes. and After having the episode that I did and being told by the Dr. I had Miscarried, They did a blood test on me and called back saying, MY Hormone level was 22,262, and said I was either Pregnant with Twins or I was further then 6 weeks. Well I knew I was 6 weeks after trying for 6 months. So they said, Come back after the weekend and test again. If the numbers have went up, your still pregnant and if the went down then you lost the baby. As soon as i got off that phone, I felt God say, "You have a choice to make, You can go along with them and think you lost this baby, or you can Believe in me and Pray that baby is still there" I chose to believe God. I began to Pray all weekend, and Thanking him for seeing this baby's sweet face in July when i was due, thanking him for a healthy Pregnancy. All of this was Walking in Faith and Claiming The Lords Blessings. I did it. Come Monday, IT was blood test time again, Off I go to the Dr. As I sit waiting in the Lab Waiting Room with tons of other ppl, im crying to myself and writing a letter to this baby and making it out a prayer. One heartfelt letter that I knew one day My baby would read when he arrived. They call me back, i walk in the room saying, God, this is it. Im about to give my Miracle to them and receive it at the same time later when they call to tell me im still pregnant. well I give my blood. Go home and wait a long day. My Dr. Calls me at he end of the day and says, My hormone level went up to 36,000 in count. Wow, The tears rolled down my face and I said thank you so much, hopped of the phone and cried so much knowing God did stand by me and this baby. This baby would be fine and we would go full term. Well I had to go back the next day for an Ultrasound, we went and I had My best friend Ginger by my side and My sister in law Leah with me as well, we all three headed to the techs room and she placed the little thingy on my belly and began to search. after 30 minutes of looking. a little flutter showed on the screen. it was our baby. Praise God Again. not only was i still pregnant. I saw our little bean as well. Now, back to this couple. She has had the same thing done to her. She had her blood drawn and they called her back to say, Yes" you are pregnant, so many would say "was" but according to How our Lord Works, You say " are Pregnant", bc you walk in Faith and claim that baby. so, They call to tell her she is pregnant and her blood level is really low, so we as believers say, that is because she is so new in pregnancy and not that far along. they tell her to come back on the 30th of this month for more blood to be drawn and see If her levels have went up or down. If Up then she is pregnant and if low, then she is not. Now. Here Is where God comes in. He gives us the Choice to believe. Yes. they have lost this baby, or Yes they are having this baby. Going on how i felt when he showed me yesterday to not worry and everything will be okay. I'm going on this baby will be just fine. I have talked with the mommy to be and told her to walk in Faith, Claim everyday that baby is still snuggled up in her belly growing fast. Now. WE need your help in Prayer as well. I am a firm Believer in Claiming Gods Blessings. He has shown me Too Many times what you get when You Claim his Blessings and he has have never proven me wrong. God is a Powerful God, He can do so much when we agree with him. I love Him so much for this. That thing the Dr's said Was a Miscarry with me. He is now sitting in his swing, smiling and laughing and healthy as can be and will be 5 months old on Sunday. Put your Faith In God and watch the Miracles unfold. Now. ill update in a week or so when we find out that baby is just fine. Thank you for your prayers.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Gods Most Precious Gifts


So I must say. Since the day I became Pregnant with my sweet daughter, I remember thinking to myself, "Wow, I'm about to be mommy" "What am I supposed to do" "this baby will depend on me for the rest of their life" All of that seems like it was just yesterday. I remember looking at her for the first time After she was born and thinking wow, When i had those thoughts when i found out i was pregnant, they were all suddenly gone and then all i could think of was, How Much i wanted to hold her, hug her, kiss her sweet tiny face, tell her how much mommy loved her and was so glad she was here. but I couldn't do any of those. After she was born to us at 29 weeks at such a surprise. She was rushed to Baptist NICU in Little Rock why I was stuck in White County Hospital In searcy about an hour away. I had the hardest time. Crying to my mom like a baby every night telling her how much I felt like I would not bond w her since i had not seen her and that she would not know me. It was so hard. Bringing her home a month later was the happiest moment of my life. Knowing, all that she had been thru she was now here for her daddy and I to have forever. That all seemed Just a day ago. Now, 3 years and 9 months later. I sit here on my couch with my " EVER SO SASSY DAUGHTER " and my Almost 5 Month old Son, Camp. It amazes me the Blessings God has Given me in such a little time. sure 3 years and 9 months seems so long to some ppl, but when a new life is given to you and you see that it has already grown in that time. and then you look at your 5 month old, the thoughts in your mind are so good yet so sad. to know that she was once that size, age and so tiny. and now you have this new baby that you love just as much and to know that one day he to will be 3 years and 9 months old. IT makes my heart break. I Love my kids so much. but remembering how Calleigh used to be able to try and pick up toys and try to roll over as Camp does and now she is standing in front of me playing with her Gold Fish on the Coffee Table asking me If i would Like some Chocolate Milk or some Cake. then Make Believing and making it all for me so I can see what it is she has made for me. I love it. But now I wake up to " Mommy, Can I be a Princess " or " Can I go in the "Livingwoom" and watch Cartoons?" Now all I can do is remember how she used to be as Camp and Cry bc she wanted to be held or it was bottle time. But all that is no longer a part of her.

My Sweet Little Boy, Camp, Who I love just as much as my Calleigh Jo. Is so different then Calleigh. With Calleigh it took so long for her to reach her Milestones bc of her being Pre Term. So When We found out we were pregnant with Camp. I told my self. "I'm Going to really enjoy him as a baby bc i see how fast hey grow up now. Well When he was born. I had a completely different Experience then With Calleigh. Yes he was 4 weeks early, but God Blessed us in so much. That Pregnancy was so hard, due to bed rest, or Pre term labor, or many other things. However. I kept my focus on What God would do for me and let me get further this time around. Well, My Lord Provided and At 36 weeks. We welcomed our adorable Son Into the family. It was such a special moment bc I had my closest friends and family with me. My wonderful Husband was by my side, My Mom, My Best Friend in the World, Ginger, My Sister, Elecia, and My Sister In Law Leah. They were all there supporting me, to Push, Keep going, Your doing great, Taking pictures, Video Taping and then Walla, A New Born Baby Boy, Weighing in at 6lbs 11oz and 20 1/2 inches Long. they were all there, But once I laid eyes on him, Its like they all disappeared. Once again. I was in Love so much with some one so Small. Becoming a Mom is so Unexplained until you lay on eyes on what you have felt inside of you for so long. someone you struggled to keep in as long as you could. and When God Lays his hands on your belly and tells that sweet baby to snuggle up a bit longer you realize your so blessed. Then to see Your sweet Little Girl Who was always your baby become the Big Sister, Watching her Look at her Baby Brother and saying, "Mommy, He came out of your Belly." Its the sweetest thing in the World to see Such little People love each other so much. To see Camp look at his big sister once she talked because he recognized her voice. When We Brought Him home, I remember staring at him all hours of the night during AM feedings saying, " Please Don't every Grow up." All bc I knew how fast it would go by. Now, He will be 5 Months Old on Sunday the 22nd and I am so happy to have the best two kids anyone could ever have.

I guess I have said all of this to say, How much it bothers me to know there are so many women out there that think they are not ready to hold a sweet innocent baby in there arms, to see a great smile on there face every time you walk in the room, to yell Mommy or Dada for the first time ever and having that feeling of being needed and loved in a way you never have before. To sit on your couch with this little Life sitting in your lap as you touch and feel their tiny fingers and toes. noticing how soft they are, hearing their sweet breath on your chest as they lie there sleeping, watching their little mouths as they Yawn, seeing how when someone holds them and they aren't comfortable, knowing that all you need to do is wrap them in your arms and them knowing, they are so at place with you holding them, snuggling them in a blanket and putting a passy in their tiny mouth rocking them back and forth just to see there little eyes close because they know they are with their mommy and are safe. Kinda how I feel with my Savior, Knowing He is always the one I can turn to, the one I can call my Father and he will always love me no matter what I do. Babies are such a Blessing, and If you are one that Becomes Pregnant before Marriage, or from any situation imaginable. Know that someone So much Higher Picked You out of everyone To bless you with such a Gift. and that If you give that Gift a Chance to live, Breath, Play, love, ect. You will be so blessed in return to have the best baby in your eyes ever. It hurts to see the ones say I'm not ready and then have an abortion, or whatever. Even if you don't have an abortion, Adoption is another way, To know that yeah, you may have messed up, but why take it out on an innocent baby? When you can bless a Family that has tried so long to make a life together and has never been able to.

I love My children. I know that day is coming when My Sweet baby girl that I once Cried so much for, Prayed so much for bc she was only 3lbs 7oz and 16 inches long needed to make it thru a bottle feeding to come home and now will sit and eat however much she can hold and wants to play dress up every day, will one day, Say Thank You Mom and Dad, and then throw her hat in the air to celebrate her Graduation. To know that day will come when My Son Who loves his Momma So much will play the tough guy and no longer want me to hug him or kiss him before he goes off to school. All that is on the way, And as much as it breaks my heart to think of any of it. I get to sit and say, I had The Blessing and Best Gift Ever that anyone could have and so many throw it away. Thank You God for Picking such a Cute, Sassy, Smart little Girl that we named Calleigh to be our Daughter, Thank You for Picking such a Snuggle Bug, Handsome, Mommas Boy to be our Son Who we named Camp. We are so Thankful You gave us the Blessings of Life. To Trust us in Raising them to live for you, To raise them and teach them Guidance in Life. Thank You.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

A Day Full Of Cute Cousins.






On Wednesday, November 11th we all went up to Mema's house because Britt and Karen were in and wanted to see all the kids. They brought Pictures of Luke and Levi and we had Calleigh, Camp, Josiah, and Eden all there as well. We all visited for a while and had alot of fun talking, but These sweet Babies made it all the fun. They all love each other so much.

BUMBO TIME





Camp is big enough now to sit up in his bumbo. It breaks my heart. Hes now almost 5 months old and I dont like to think about it at all, but Hes a growing little Guy and I know we have to show and work with him on how to sit up. Enjoy the Pics.

~*~ Its Tutu Time ~*~






Calleigh Loves Playing Dress up and When I say this I mean it. Every morning we wake up. the first words out of her little mouth is, " Can I be a Princess?" I love it. I have something to look forward to every day with her. Shes so much fun thow. This day she had to dress up in her Purple Tutu that her grannah bought her along with her headband and shoes to match. she picked a teal blue night shirt to go with the outfit. but. she made sure the purple in her shirt matched her tutu. at least she knows how to do that much. She Brings Smiles to my face every day. I love this Kid.

Campers Room






I decided to Do Camps Bedroom in White Furniture and Safari Bedding from Baby Gap. I loved the colors and theme of the Bedding. We went with White, Brown and Greens. Mainly with some hints of Red. I love it tho and it matches my lil man just perfect. It took me forever to get it up and ready. We were in the middle of moving and we had to Paint all of the Furniture since it used to be Calleighs, But we got it done and put together by September.

A BOOOOORifect HALLOWEEN.






This Year was Calleighs 4th Halloween and she was all dolled up as Sleeping Beauty. Campers enjoyed his 1st Halloween as a Cute Tootsie Roll. We Didn't Go Trick or Treating this year, Instead we Attended Our First Annual Fall Festival at our Church. It was A Fun night full of Games and Fellowship. Calleigh Loved all the Games and Camp pretty much just sat in the arms of Who Ever wanted to hold him at the time. But we had a Blast. My Kiddos were super cute and I love them Very Much.

My 2 Favorite Little People.






Calleigh and Camp are adjusting to each other so well. I'm so Thankful to have such a little helper. Calleigh Loves getting things. helping feed her brother, dress him, talk to him, sing to him, laugh at him, nap with him and so much more. She has proven to be such the Big Sister. Camp loves how she is so into him and Loves it when she is around. I Thank God Above for Giving Us Two of the Best Kids. I love them both so much.

Vacation Time, Destin, Fl.






In August we Finally Took a Much needed Vacation To Destin FL. It Was so much Fun. The Kids Did Great In the Car Ride Down and Back. Camp had to eat every 3 hours and of Course We had Potty Breaks for Calleigh. But All was worth it once We Arrived in our Vacations Spot. We stayed At the Sun Destin Resort Right on the Beach. It was Great. Our Condo was Ocean Front so right on the water and The View Was Great. We had so much fun on the Beach with the Kids. Calleigh loved the Sand and Water. Camp was so little still that we covered him in Sunblock and sat him under the Umbrella in his Bouncy Chair. We went to the Beach Every day. Sun was Great. weather as well and the Water was So Calm. I have to say that we RELAXED all week. We ate out so much and probably gained 10 lbs each for Corey and I, But it was so much fun. Did Lots of shopping and Watching Movies. The last Day on our Vacation, Elecia and Ginger Decided To come down. they were there all of 1 day and had a blast. but were really tired. The Drive home was long and dreaded. All bc I could have stayed at that Beach. But we will go back again soon.

* 4th Of July *






We celebrated 4th of July this Year at Allen and Brenda's House. We love this Holiday because all of Corey's Family gets together and we Eat a Big Lunch and just Visit. I love Family time. This was Calleighs fourth 4th of July and Camps first. We had so much fun. Eating, Swimming, Pictures and Talking of course. Always a great way to spend the Holiday.

~ A New Addition ~ Baby Camp Is Born.






So, I'm a little behind on updating. But here's a few things since June.

On June 22, 2009 We Welcomed Baby Camp into our family. He was born at UAMS at 4:37 am in the morning on Monday. He Is a Healthy baby boy weighing in at 6 lbs 11oz and 20 1/2 inches long. He Had Dark hair, Ears Like His mommy, A nose like His Mommy and a sweet set of blue eyes like his daddy.He has Olive Skin tone as Mommy and Grunts. LOL. But it is these small things that make him so sweet. We are all doing great and have had a fun time adjusting to a sweet baby boy. Calleigh Loves her baby brother and wants to hold him every day. He's a lil grunter and will grunt all day long. He does wake up every 3 hours, day and night, but the am feedings are worth it. Corey and I are having to get used to now having two sweet little ones, However, I must Say. This is the Best Blessing and Gift I could have ever asked for. Camp is such a Blessing and Gift from above. We all Love him very much.